If you don’t, don’t

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This week has been absolutely crazy. Surprise engagements have that effect I guess. ┬áJon is now on a plane heading to Chicago, then London. I on the other hand, am sitting on my ass, debating taking a nap, and watching Dirty Dancing on ABC Family. The week, as I said, was busy. I skipped 3/5 of my grad classes, and while that didn’t exactly put me behind…it did not get me ahead either. There are only 3 weeks left of winter quarter, and I am positively chomping at the bit. This week’s gorgeous weather, having my man by my side for jaunts around the city, and day beer drinking were a little taste of next month’s activities-now I don’t know how well I can handle this space between now and spring break . Particularly when the cold comes back later this week. Noooo! I almost busted out my bike (because I am a huge whiner who refuses to do cold-weather biking like the hipster that I am supposed to be), but alas, the weather is going to get too cold again soon.

And I’ll let you guys in on a little secret-Jon and I were already planning on getting married. We were looking at places, pondering dates…we’d talked over some things. But this whole proposal thing was a total surprise. And surprisingly enough, I actually feel different now. Even though nothing has changed except a ring on my finger (and a beautiful one at that), I feel wonderful in a way I didn’t expect. I feel safe and confident in our relationship in areas I never thought about before. Saying goodbye to Jon today was hard, it’s always hard and will always be hard, but it was probably the easiest of our goodbyes. I’ll see him again next month. And really, we have our whole lives to be together. This bit, it’s just a drop in the bucket of many, many years to come. And that is a very reassuring feeling. We are lucky to love each other.

4 thoughts on “If you don’t, don’t

  1. So weird that’s it’s different-I can’t even imagine how weird it will be when we’re actually, ya know, married and shit. I shall be expatriating, at least for a few years! Ol’ Juan is very gainfully employed, so we’re gonna ride that train for awhile. Plus, health care woooo!

    1. Thanks! I’m definitely enjoying reading your twin’s stuff-you guys are so stylish and chic anyway, so I may have to steal some wedding ideas:)

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